Dear Me,
Act as loud as you speak. Your mouth may have shrunk, but your mind is full of substance, more than ever before. It cannot be silenced or restrained like your teeth. And even though you have interesting thoughts and processes, you aren't doing much besides amplifying your words. Yes, you write, you read, you think, you feel--but what are you doing to get to the next level? What are you doing to take your creativity beyond ideas? How will you make them real and visible? You gripe about limitations, but you aren't doing much to break the boundaries. Oh, don't forget how good you are at crossing the line. So then: why are you so afraid of taking risks with something that you value so much? You constantly tell yourself to be happy; you are practicing to put yourself first; you remind yourself that you have so much potential; others even remind you of your worth. So why are you holding back? Why are you holding back an art form--your forms of expression--that so many have difficulty conveying? You are a good observer. You take great mental notes (even though you sometimes disregard important details and overthink others). Your vision is accurate. So don't let your peripherals take center stage. Leave them on the sidelines and focus on what you truly want for yourself. Distractions are fun, but they can also be deadly if you sit with them too long. Remember that. In the beginning, you had this idea of turning your passions into a profession. Rekindle that initial motivation from deep within you. The one that made your heart beat a little faster, the one that made you smile without uttering a word. It's still alive. But you aren't doing a great job of feeding it, caring for it, or loving it. But it can't live in a cage forever. You will need to educate it, show it off, teach it new tricks and practice them. Be patient but not static.
-Sincerely,
The realNESS in Me.
